outdoor services:)

There's just something about outdoor services, especially during the praise&worship part. There is something about being out and open in the world, that God created for us all. There is something that makes it amazing to worship God, hearing the trees blow in the wind, feeling the sun&the wind, feeling the grass, just being int he world that He created, and being able to thank him for it, being able to worship him in it. Is just amazing. So last night, When Brian was preaching, I think that parable he was telling us about had a whole other meaning, but in the beginning, when they were playing the song surrender.. the only thing that I could think of surrendering to God, is just myself and My relationship with Michael. Which doesn't mean, to me, to break up. It meant to me that I needed to rededicate myself to God, and our relationship as well.
So last night after he dropped me off, I was talking to him about that.. and we decided that we want to do it, we want to dedicate our relationship to God, and God alone.
So I prayed for us after he dropped me off, and basically I prayed that we made every decision with God in mind, that we make our relationship a Holy one. And allow us to grow closer to each other, and closer to God at the same time. I also asked for forgivness for everything that has happened, so needless to say, I am going to be trying very hard to not fall into this again.
I know that it is going to be hard, and I know this is like the millionth time that I have said that I was going to try. But this time I honestly feel different, this time I know it will NOT happen.
WE will NOT mess this relationship up. I want it to be Godly, and I want it to be pure, I want to be right with God, in my life and in my relationship.
And, yes this also means making a harder effort to stop tieing my shoes.
Its going to be a hard and long road, but I know that God can empower me to do it.