Bible talkkk.

Exodus 17
- This Chapter was almost the same as the last one. Again the people of Isreal moved, and again they were deprived of water. So they complained to Moses, and again Moses said "Why are you complaing to me" So Moses spoke to God, and God told him that he needed to go to a rock, and strike the rock with his staff, and then water would come out. Moses did just that and water came out. He then questioned the people of why they were doubting the Lord by saying "is he here with us or not" --How many times have you asked this question.. I know that I have asked it a lot before.. I asked it when my Aunt was in jail for all the times that she stole and got high, and I asked when Ariels father died, and when all of the other deaths happened in '09. I asked it when I was still with Daemon, and then right after we broke up I asked it as well.. I ask it still to this day, when I am thinking about my family, each and every member that doesn't believe.. and all of my friends that don't believe.. is God really truly here for me? Is he here for them? And time and time again, God proved that he was there, God has always found a way to make water come out of my rocks in life, so why do I still doubt him. I think that it is the works of the Devil.. the Devil (I think) puts little scenerious in your head.. to make you doubt the Lord.. do you listen to the lies.. or can you still hear the truth?--Then Aaron was asked by the Lord to gather a number of people to fight against the Amalek, the Isrealites wont thanks to Noah, so the Lord told Noah to build an Alter and read this off to the Isrealites, I will banish the memories of Amalek and no more wars will come from it. The people were not happy at this and so they raised their fists in protest towards the Lords alter.. so the Lord said.. you will be at war for them now forever.. since you protested against me banishing it.--Now this really spoke to me.. Have you ever had the sin.. that you wanna go away.. and then when you ask for forgivness, you start thinking about how horrible of a person you were even when God the father has already forgiven you.. if God has forgiven you.. than why should you still be beating yourself up after it.. that only (in my eyes) makes it come back. Because when you are beating yourself up about it.. would be the perfect time for you to set rules, or boundries, or guidlines, so that it dosen't happen again. Instead you beat yourself up over your sins time and time again.. and from that nothing good comes I know, because this has happened to me. Also, another thing to think about.. how many times have you been angry with God,I know I have when I lost so many people that we so close to me.. but I didn't come to terms with it until I forgave God, and put down my fists of protests.. and then I was allowed to start working on myself, and my feelings. Now, don't get me wrong.. the bible I am sure says that it is OKAY to get mad at God.. you just have to know when enough is enough.. and when you need to let it go.--
I liked my reading for the night, I like what I got out of them.