Well, alot actually happened today..
I'll sum up and give you the details later..
I talked to Nallie, about her running around with the boy&about her being more snappy and nasty lately.
I talked to Jessica, about her not saying anything to me about coming home later.. which is soooo messed up.
&this part.. seriously you cant say a WORD it took a lot for her to come to me about all this.. alot.. and I don't wanna break that with her.. but since I tell you everything, and I mean everything.. this falls under the everything part.
&I facebook chatted Bev. Her status earlier was "just sometimes wants to throw the towel in".. so I don't know why but something was telling me to facebook chat her.. and so I did I'm actually going to copy&paste the whole thing sot hat you can see it all.. but. I think Braxton might be sick, really sick.. or have the chance to be.. like cancer wise sick.. just see..
Makenzie:hey.. this might be weird. but i saw your post earlier.. &dont give up.. dont throw the towel in.
Bev:random yes.. but thanks.
Makenzie:your wekcomee..have fun tonoghtt :)
Bev:thats our plan. you too?
Makenzie: will do
Bev: :) nice chatting. ugghhh have i mentioned how much i miss her?
Bev:can i talk to you about something really quick actually?nevermind. im good.
Makenzie:wait yes.. i was showing mom my pictures. I really was.. i hate it when things like this happen. lol.
Bev:no.. its okay. dont worry about it. I think she was just trying to keep making me ask&ask about it.
Makenze:are you sure bev?
Bev:yeah.. you dont need to worry about it. im all good.
Makenzie:okay.latergator So I left it alone.
Bev:later.
Makenzie:if there was an opportunity for you to lose someone you cared about.. & nothing you could do about it.. what do you do? just for the record.. for here I thought that she was talking about you..wondering how in the world, she would get that sane to come to me about you.. that would just be a huge turn around.&by the wayy it took a while for her to message me back from the previous post to this one.. so seaming to not worry about what was going on.. made her wana talk more which is what i thought was going to happen, I thought at this point that she was trying to play the pitty card.
Makenzie:pray about it.. a lot.. ask that God shows you a way to keep them in your life, for him to open your eyes to things that you could do differently to keep them in..
Bev:what if it was a health issue.. beyond your control?i mean.. would you change how you act? Up until this point, I really thought she was talking about you&then I was like.. holdd up.
Makenzie:Well, I'm sure you know how hard this is for me..did you wanna elaborate.. maybe then I could help better.
Bev:thats why im asking you.. but you dont have to talk.
Makenzie:No, I'll talk.. I wanna help.
Bev: just.. a friend of mine.. could have a cancer gene. a parent had cancer. & could pass it on. either actually cancer. or a thing called a brca2 gene. which is some kind of mutation. &here I had no idea what she was talking about.. or who rather.
Makenzie:okay.. well to start..from my experience.. i would deff pray for them.. are they a christian?
Bev:& you dont realize how hard it is for me to come to you about this.. i just odnt have anyone else I dont really know what she meant by this.. I wish she would open her eyes.. there are soo many people around her if she would just realizze it.
Makenzie:Well just push that part aside..
Bev:yeah. they are.. they probably have more faith then people give them credit for. they arent worried. &right here it hit me like bingo, Braxtons Mom had cancer, and who else would she be talking about. Who else, in my head would she talk up like that?
Makenzie:okay.. i think I know who you are talking about.. I would pray for them.. to get closer and closer to God every day, because it hurts to think that a person you really care about isn't in heaven.. pray for God to help you see that this is part of Gods plan..and that if it is meant to be than it is. Pray for God to give you, and this person peace within the situation, &i know it sounds cliche but just pray praypray, know that i will be praying too.
Bev:its not cliche. & thats my plan.i just.. dont know how to be. thats all.
makeznie:Is it like legit, are there tests being done.. because, worrying about nothing to make you sick wont help matters..
Bev:they arent worried at all. just a thought of losing someone you care about.. you know that.
Makenze:yeah.. i know.
Bev:tests have to wait til 18. it could be nothing. but it could be something.
Makenzie:Pray that its nothing.I know its not that easy.. but tats raelly all you can do if its out of your hands.
Bev:but if its meant to be something. it will be something. which i get. a plan is a plan.
Bev:just the thought scares me.it'll all work out in time..
Makenzie:Yeah I know what you mean.. thats how I feel with my father sometimes.. just ehhh, I really don't know Bev. I'm sorry.
Bev:its okay. i think i just needed.. reinforcement. thanks.& i get it.. with your dad. i never really did.. lately though. i get it.
Makenzie:Alright.. well I will be praying for the best
Bev: thank you.you too. for everything.
Makenzie: You'r welcome.&thankss
Bev: your welcome. anytime.
So woww.. right? I mean.. this is really serious. At the same time though.. I dunno, just a lot of mixed emotions with this whole thing.. its very confusing.. just we need to both pray&both pray hard I guess. Because neither of us want this for her.. this is something horrible.. and it will kill her too, if something like this happened.. I mean kill her.. and lets face it neither of us wanted her to loose him this way.. none of us even wanna loose him.. I don't know.. let me know your thoughts.
I know that God will have is way in this in the end.. and I know that there is nothing we can do or say to change his mind.. but we can pray for peace in her heart, if something like this does come around.
This is just so tricky..
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